Who am I without my past…

Without your past, you are a quiet, living presence that simply knows it exists. Eckhart Tolle.

The Core Idea

• Drop the story: Letting go of your name, history, and memories leaves behind your conceptual identity.

• Pure beingness: When the mind says "I don't know who I am," a deep sense of presence and the simple feeling of "I am" emerges.

• Beyond the form: Your true self is not the mental story of your life, but the alert consciousness experiencing the present moment.

Who am I without the stories I tell myself?  In that moment of receiving this into my mind/body/spirit,  my heart seemed to sigh.   That sounds a bit ambiguous.  Yet it was a deep sigh that went beyond what words can describe.   My body opened.   My thoughts were here and now.   Not what shaped me into this person.  Just this person/spirit/consciousness who is me.

Things that I noticed:  My shoulders dropped, my breath deepened,  my neck was not tense, my feet felt somehow planted, my eyes seemed able to see clearer and take in more colors.   My usual thought of “yea but” was not there, nor the narrative “I am the sum total of the good, the bad, and the ugly”….GONE.    You know those subtle judgements or maybe not so subtle that we automatically accept!!!???  I was renewed somehow in this moment!!!   Free!!!   My parents were not at fault.  Old traumas fell away!  My narrative was gone in that moment of body-centered awareness.  In addition, I realized the tightness was gone in my body and a relaxed state took  its place.   As if I had off-loaded an insurmountable weight.   

My thoughts as I write are:  I want to keep this! I want to be saturated with this transcendent state and never forget or lose it!   It feels too wonderful to let it slip away.   

With intention I ground into this path/way/state.   Filling my body/mind/spirit with this experience.  

And so it is 🦋💜

~Tina~